Bismillahirahmanirrahim.
Dari kecik, Ummi dan Abi tak pernah mendidik kami untuk bergantung pada ubat klinik/dotor/pharmacy kecuali vaksin vaksin tu la. Aku sendiri tak pernah telan panadol ke antibiotik ke. Ade orang jenis sakit kepala ke, selesema ke, demam ke, panadol atau klinik penyelesaiannya.
Ummi memang selalu research on alternative treatment other than drugs. Yang pernah ktorang sefamily guna; Spirulina, Propolis, Myung, Herbalife, dan Homeopathy.
Alhamdulillah, di usia pertengahan 50an, kedua2 Ummi dan Abi tak meghidap kencing manis, darah tinggi, sakit jantung, kolestrol etc. Both of them memang amalkan Herbalife as sarapan dorang. Ahamdulillah.
Disebabkan didikan sebegini, aku sendiri sangatlah jarang pergi klinik untuk jumpa doktor. Boleh kira dengan jari, seriously. Bila kahwin, suami aku selalu hairan dan pelik. Suami pulak ada medical history dulu2, so memang selalu sangat jumpa doc and duduk hospital.
Bila pregnant ni, akhirnya pertemuan dengan doctor yang frequent. Setiap kali nak jumpe, setiap kali tu nervous, takut and macam2. Takut kena tanya tak boleh jawab la, takut die cek sana, cek sini la hahah.
Nak dijadikan cerita, everytime checkup kan kena ambik blood. So first time kena ambik tu (aku erius tak pernah kena ambik blood!) aku tengok je jarum sepanjang tu terus gerun, nurse pun cakap "jangan takut, stress, nanti urat tegang susah nak ambik" Aku pun tarik nafas and tengok tempat lain. Alhamdulillah first time smooth.
Second checkup pulak. Masa tu nurse nak ambik kat tangan belah kanan, tapi tak jumpa urat. Ya Allah sakitnye, jarum tu masuk pastu gerak2 kat dalam cari urat huwaaaaa. Sakit! PAstu sebelah kiri pulak cucuk, ALhamdulillah dapat. Aku tahan je... Bila keluar je dari bilik tu, nampak suami aku terus aku nangis KAHKAHKAH.
Anyway this is our first joy at 15 weeks. :) Alhamdulillah.
Thursday, May 15, 2014
Friday, April 11, 2014
Thursday, April 10, 2014
Our First Joy: When We Found Out
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Satu doa yang aku ulang2 dalam setiap tahajud, setiap kali tawaf, setiap saat semasa di Tanah Haram ialah,
"Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, eratkan kasih sayang antara aku dan suamiku, kurniakan kami cahaya mata, zuriat kami sendiri ya Allah. Kurniakan kesihatan yang baik untuk kami sumi isteri, zuriat yang sihat dan sempurna. Jadikan anak-anak kami anak yang terbaik untuk kami, dan jadikan kami ibu bapa yang terbaik untuk mereka, dan jadikan kami sekeluarga hamba2 Mu yang soleh, pembantu agama dan menjadi penghuni syurga"
Aminn..
Kat Tanah Haram kan majoriti perempuan semua pakai jubah hitam, on my last night in Makkah, ada sorang budak ni keep mistakenly think I'm her mother. A very cute one. Masa tengah solat, pegang jubah peluk kaki, I can't help but cried...
Subhanallah Alhamdulillah Allahuakbar.
Usia perkahwinan kami ialah 2 tahun 5 bulan 16 hari semasa HPT (Home Pregnancy Test) kami untuk pertama kali nya positif.
Satu doa yang aku ulang2 dalam setiap tahajud, setiap kali tawaf, setiap saat semasa di Tanah Haram ialah,
"Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, eratkan kasih sayang antara aku dan suamiku, kurniakan kami cahaya mata, zuriat kami sendiri ya Allah. Kurniakan kesihatan yang baik untuk kami sumi isteri, zuriat yang sihat dan sempurna. Jadikan anak-anak kami anak yang terbaik untuk kami, dan jadikan kami ibu bapa yang terbaik untuk mereka, dan jadikan kami sekeluarga hamba2 Mu yang soleh, pembantu agama dan menjadi penghuni syurga"
Aminn..
Kat Tanah Haram kan majoriti perempuan semua pakai jubah hitam, on my last night in Makkah, ada sorang budak ni keep mistakenly think I'm her mother. A very cute one. Masa tengah solat, pegang jubah peluk kaki, I can't help but cried...
Subhanallah Alhamdulillah Allahuakbar.
Usia perkahwinan kami ialah 2 tahun 5 bulan 16 hari semasa HPT (Home Pregnancy Test) kami untuk pertama kali nya positif.
Thursday, April 3, 2014
Cousin is getting married!
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Just now received a good news from my in-laws family. One of our cousin is getting married in August.
Before this he had contacted my husband for some advices, well, husband is the only one who had 'pecah tradisi' in the family as in got married early, belum kerja etc. The cousin is still studying oversea, and so is the wife-to-be, (insya Allah).
Disebabkan faktor masih study, macam biase the parent agak reluctant. Bak kata suami aku, takde orang yang takde obstacle dalam menuju gerbang perkahwinan.
Cerita kami: hati ke hati face-to-face dengan parents. Cerita cousin kami ni: send email panjang lebar lahir dari hati to the parents. Doa dan solat malam jugak jangan lupa.
Masing-masing ada cerita tersendiri, cerita perjalanan nak kahwin tu la yang akan terpahat dan menambahkan kasih sayang antara suami dan isteri tu. Aku selalu je bila teringat and tiba2 usap2 kepala suami, peluk ke and tell him I love him. Unforgettable moment orang cakap. :)
Semoga semua berjalan lancar untuk cousin kami tu, Ameen. Tahniah!
ps: Perjalanan mengenal pasangan lepas kahwin tu will be another story pulak! :p
Just now received a good news from my in-laws family. One of our cousin is getting married in August.
Before this he had contacted my husband for some advices, well, husband is the only one who had 'pecah tradisi' in the family as in got married early, belum kerja etc. The cousin is still studying oversea, and so is the wife-to-be, (insya Allah).
Disebabkan faktor masih study, macam biase the parent agak reluctant. Bak kata suami aku, takde orang yang takde obstacle dalam menuju gerbang perkahwinan.
Cerita kami: hati ke hati face-to-face dengan parents. Cerita cousin kami ni: send email panjang lebar lahir dari hati to the parents. Doa dan solat malam jugak jangan lupa.
Masing-masing ada cerita tersendiri, cerita perjalanan nak kahwin tu la yang akan terpahat dan menambahkan kasih sayang antara suami dan isteri tu. Aku selalu je bila teringat and tiba2 usap2 kepala suami, peluk ke and tell him I love him. Unforgettable moment orang cakap. :)
Semoga semua berjalan lancar untuk cousin kami tu, Ameen. Tahniah!
ps: Perjalanan mengenal pasangan lepas kahwin tu will be another story pulak! :p
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Kembara Hidup: Tanah Haram Part 1
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Sebelum lagi lambat tulis baiklah aku cepat-cepat post pasal Umrah, nanti basi pulak. :D
So kami pergi bulan January 2014. Bila google masa tu musim sejuk. Semua kenalan aku yang dah Umrah tak pernah pergi masa musim sejuk, so takde reference sangat.
Apa yang perlu dibuat sebelum, semasa dan selepas Umrah? Honestly, aku sendiri banyak sangat pertanyaan dan banyak sangat google, dan baca blog pengalaman orang yang dah penah pegi. Kalini aku pulak yang akan list down apa yang penting, apa yang tak perlu etc etc.
Aku pergi dengan suami, berdua je. Ikut pakej Rayhar Sdn Bhd. Boleh klik untuk pegi website company ni. Apa yang perlu buat mula-mula?
Sebelum lagi lambat tulis baiklah aku cepat-cepat post pasal Umrah, nanti basi pulak. :D
So kami pergi bulan January 2014. Bila google masa tu musim sejuk. Semua kenalan aku yang dah Umrah tak pernah pergi masa musim sejuk, so takde reference sangat.
Apa yang perlu dibuat sebelum, semasa dan selepas Umrah? Honestly, aku sendiri banyak sangat pertanyaan dan banyak sangat google, dan baca blog pengalaman orang yang dah penah pegi. Kalini aku pulak yang akan list down apa yang penting, apa yang tak perlu etc etc.
Aku pergi dengan suami, berdua je. Ikut pakej Rayhar Sdn Bhd. Boleh klik untuk pegi website company ni. Apa yang perlu buat mula-mula?
Friday, January 31, 2014
Rezeki, Gembira dan Air Mata
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Alhamdulillah dah masuk Februari 2014. My 2 weeks of January was spent in a serene meaningful journey in Makkah and Madinah. Tapi tu akan diceritakan di post lain insya Allah.
Aku nampak satu luahan kat timeline Facebook semalam, ni aku screenshot.
Alhamdulillah dah masuk Februari 2014. My 2 weeks of January was spent in a serene meaningful journey in Makkah and Madinah. Tapi tu akan diceritakan di post lain insya Allah.
Aku nampak satu luahan kat timeline Facebook semalam, ni aku screenshot.
2013; Year of Searching
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Alhamdulillah dah masuk tahun 2014. Nak habis bulan Januari dah pun. Macam biasa nak recap apa-apa sepanjang tahun 2013. Kalini tak recap panjang, hanya recap luahan hati dan perasaan yang ditanggung.
Januari 2013 - Ada Spectacular. Event tahunan Herbalife peringkat nasional. Ni kira Spectacular ke tiga aku. Datang first time sebagai GET. Kira macam naik pangkat la. And treatment pun lain, taktau la nak cakap lain sangat tak pun. Biasa je, cuma tak perlu berebut kerusi, memang tak ramai GET pun kat seat GET. Ramai kat VIP. Spectacular 2013 ialah Spectacular yang aku tak rasa apa-apa. Team ramai, buat FG, tapi mungkin sebab aku tak rasa apa2, so takde apa-apa perubahan.
Sepanjang 2 tahun dalam Herbalife, aku je yang tahu macam mana aku boleh achieve sampai GET. It's not an inspiring journey and it's not something that I'm proud of. Imagine, I'm not proud of it, but people congratulating without knowing the real story. Sama macam masa Supervisor, I'm not proud at all. Qualifying for World Team, not proud. Only if they knew the real story...
So the pressure is on. I'm not who I am and they don't want to listen. I tried and tried. I'm still not good, I need to slow down to gain the experience, the skill, the knowedge, but no! The whole year. All I kept getting are advices of going to the next level. I knew I'm not even qualified for the current position. I cried and cried.
All these while, it's not about me genuinely wanted to qualify, it's all about them, it's all about the recognition and fame, it's all about being the so-called leader taking the lead first. It's all about being 'teachable', ikut jeeeeee. I was so much hurt, mentally and emotionally. At one point I didn't even know what I want anymore.
Bila dalam event, aku lain. Bila takde orang Herbalife, aku lain.
I was giving 100% to Herbalife, tapi hidup semua kucar kacir. I can't give time to other things or focus to other important things.
It's not good for me. And my 'why' is gone.
Went to Extravaganza (May or June), just for the sake of attending it. *sigh*
Being unstable mentally and emotionally I always fought with my husband. Not a good phase in the marriage. Alas, I thought this has to stop. I made the decision.
And I stop. Sending message to them; my last message to all of them were Sorry for all what I've done. It's during Raya 2013.
I can conclude half of 2013, it's me feeling lost and searching. Another half of the year is struggling for a new journey. And now it's 2014, Alhamdulillah, we're so much settling in, almost all debts had been paid. Business is still going well, Herbalife is still our source of income.
It's not easy. Tapi Alhamdulillah, lebih tenang, lebih fokus, dan lebih terurus kehidupan dan bisnes.
Moga Allah berkati setiap langkah.
Alhamdulillah dah masuk tahun 2014. Nak habis bulan Januari dah pun. Macam biasa nak recap apa-apa sepanjang tahun 2013. Kalini tak recap panjang, hanya recap luahan hati dan perasaan yang ditanggung.
Januari 2013 - Ada Spectacular. Event tahunan Herbalife peringkat nasional. Ni kira Spectacular ke tiga aku. Datang first time sebagai GET. Kira macam naik pangkat la. And treatment pun lain, taktau la nak cakap lain sangat tak pun. Biasa je, cuma tak perlu berebut kerusi, memang tak ramai GET pun kat seat GET. Ramai kat VIP. Spectacular 2013 ialah Spectacular yang aku tak rasa apa-apa. Team ramai, buat FG, tapi mungkin sebab aku tak rasa apa2, so takde apa-apa perubahan.
Sepanjang 2 tahun dalam Herbalife, aku je yang tahu macam mana aku boleh achieve sampai GET. It's not an inspiring journey and it's not something that I'm proud of. Imagine, I'm not proud of it, but people congratulating without knowing the real story. Sama macam masa Supervisor, I'm not proud at all. Qualifying for World Team, not proud. Only if they knew the real story...
So the pressure is on. I'm not who I am and they don't want to listen. I tried and tried. I'm still not good, I need to slow down to gain the experience, the skill, the knowedge, but no! The whole year. All I kept getting are advices of going to the next level. I knew I'm not even qualified for the current position. I cried and cried.
All these while, it's not about me genuinely wanted to qualify, it's all about them, it's all about the recognition and fame, it's all about being the so-called leader taking the lead first. It's all about being 'teachable', ikut jeeeeee. I was so much hurt, mentally and emotionally. At one point I didn't even know what I want anymore.
Bila dalam event, aku lain. Bila takde orang Herbalife, aku lain.
I was giving 100% to Herbalife, tapi hidup semua kucar kacir. I can't give time to other things or focus to other important things.
It's not good for me. And my 'why' is gone.
Went to Extravaganza (May or June), just for the sake of attending it. *sigh*
Being unstable mentally and emotionally I always fought with my husband. Not a good phase in the marriage. Alas, I thought this has to stop. I made the decision.
And I stop. Sending message to them; my last message to all of them were Sorry for all what I've done. It's during Raya 2013.
I can conclude half of 2013, it's me feeling lost and searching. Another half of the year is struggling for a new journey. And now it's 2014, Alhamdulillah, we're so much settling in, almost all debts had been paid. Business is still going well, Herbalife is still our source of income.
It's not easy. Tapi Alhamdulillah, lebih tenang, lebih fokus, dan lebih terurus kehidupan dan bisnes.
Moga Allah berkati setiap langkah.
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